I feel like everything’s lacking in my life right now. i can’t bring myself to be happy for anything. It really feels like such a chore to be happy these days. Everything’s reminding me about how unhappy I am with my life right now. i don’t even know where I’m going. And when I say that, I don’t mean career wise.Career’s the easy part.

I mean, I’m turning 20 in a few months, and I don’t know where i am at all. I remember a few years back thinking, by 20 , I’ll have my life figured out. But no.. not at all.

I often have to be calm and talk my friends through their problems, but my problems tend to get overlooked in the process. I can’t seem to stay calm for my own problems, or talk myself through anything. I don’t even know what to do.. I can’t even take my own advice for half of the stuff I’m going through. And the problem is, I’m not even going through anything significant right now. I don’t know what’s wrong with me.

I don’t even know what to do. I don’t know what I want my life to be like at all. All I know is that this isn’t what I want. I hate sitting in my room with all the voices in my head screaming at each other. Its so loud.